Something has happened, something quiet life changing, and it is very sad right now. It’s probably the saddest thing I’ve ever experienced in my life, and it is heartbreaking. But, for the first time in my life I also feel ready to accept what I’m feeling and allow myself to feel it 100 % – not to suppress the emotions, but to let them come and be okay with that. To talk about them, to open up.
For far too many years my response to any kind of discomfort has been to suppress the feelings, maybe hide in the bathroom if I felt the need to cry, but most of all just to put a lid on everything and hide my feelings inside of me. That has without a doubt not been a healthy way to deal with things, and I’m sure that these surpressed emotions has caused troubles inside of me (because I do believe that feelings sit in the body and can eventually cause disease and sickness).
But I won’t do that anymore. It’s time to come out with them, all of them, talk things through, cry when I need to, just be with the feelings and accept them.
I’m okay, I’m just going through a hard time at the moment, but everything is going to be okay, I know that. If anyone else out there is battling with something similar, or haven’t dealt with old stored emotions, take this as a sign to accept your feelings and your needs. Cry, write, talk to someone, go for a walk, just sit – whatever you need, but really try to deal with your emotions rather than just push through and do all kind of other stuff just to try to ‘put a lid on it’, because that will not make the feelings go away. The only way to make things feel better is to go through the feelings, and let them come up.